CHAPTER 7
Chapter 7
Nora:
I was sick to my stomach.
“I have to leave now, a nurse will come in to attend to you. He sl and walked out of the ward.
I was shattered and couldn’t speak for a second.
The smell of disinfectant was in the air, heavy, like a sort of invisible cloud. I hated it in the hospital; it was a place that reminded me of human’s and their weak tendency to fall sick. Ipped my feet impatiently as we waited, my eyes darting from one corner of the waiting room to another.
Finally, she came out, a smile on her small face, her steps fast–paced and confident.
“Congratulations. Miss Nora,” she said, handing me the envelope “You’re pregnant.
I took the envelope from her in a state of befuddlement and stared at it as if it were some mysterious object I had been handed. Dmitri put his hands around my shoulder, squeezing.
“Congratulations to the both of you,” the nurse said, this time looking from me to Dmitri. T… assume you guys are a couple?”
“Ohh, erm, yes, we are,” Dmitri said, running his hand through my trembling fingers.
“Ohh, okay the nurse said. “Congrats again,”
And she walked away. I was still in a faze. Dmitri had his eyes on me.
“Come on, Nora, let’s go,” he said, pulling me along.
I wanted to puke all over my dress.
When we got into the car, I put my head on the dashboard and let the grief well up in me, till I cried and cried. I could not believe that I was really carrying Derrick’s child. The thought of it filled me up with so much revulsion and disgust, and ultimately, anger.
“Are you okay?” Dmitri asked, his hand on my back, rubbing gently. But I did not want his sympathy. I wanted him to drive, out of the parking lot of the hospital, into the road, back to the pack. I banged my head on the dashboard.
“Hey, hey, hey,” Dmitri said. “Calm down, okay? You’ll hurt yourself. Stop that
I raised my head and my eyes met his. I saw him flinch from the look of fury on my face.
“Calm down?” I asked him, my voice deep with unreleased emotions. “Calm down, you say? When I’m carrying that bastard’s hild. You really don’t understand this, do you? Just drive, Dimitri Just fucking drive.
He nodded, and we set out. I kept my eyes outside of the car as we sped through, tears steadily snaking down my eyes. I did not speak a single word to Dmitri even though I knew he had his eyes on me throughout. I simply kept my eyes outside.
We got to the pack in total silence, but when we got inside our bedroom, I collapsed on the floor, clutching the envelope, and released a loud wail, so loud I knew that it would make my throat hurt. But that was all I could do for how bad I felt –
cry.
Dmitri knelt beside me, pulled me into himself.
“Come on, Nora, this doesn’t change anything.” he said to me. “Our contract marriage still stands. And you’re still safe here.”
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But I knew Dmitri would not understand. I was the one carrying the child, the one who would give birth to it. It was far more complicated than I could ever explain. Derrick had not just treated me poorly, but had also tried to end me, to obliterate me. My hatred for him was absolute, and potent. I waited nothing more than his downfall.
I continued my wailing, falling on the ground and flailing my arms like a child that had lost its mother.
“Come on, Nora,” Dmitri said. “You’re making a mess of yourself Stand up. We will still get out revenge on Derrick.”
I sat up suddenly, my legs tucked in, and gave Dmitri a cold look
“I want to kill him,” I said, my voice icy. “I want to end him.
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“We will do that, Nora,” he said, his hand on my thigh. “But we have to be careful, and develop a good strategy. For now, you have to pick yourself up.”
“I need to find a way to take this baby out,” I said, staring into space. “I can’t have Derrick’s baby,”
“No, Nora, you don’t have to do that,” Dmitri said, a sadness in his voice. “Whether or not Derrick is the father, it doesn’t matter. That child that is growing inside of you deserves a chance at life. And you have a responsibility as its mother-
“Mother? Mother?” Lasked him, my eyes wild. “I am nobody’s mother, and I don’t plan on becoming one yet. I’m taking this fucking child out.”
“Okay, calm down,” he said to me. “You’re agitated; you’re confused. But it will be fine, I promise you. I’m here Property of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.
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I kept staring at him as he scooched over to where I sat and pulled me in, the smell of coffee thus seemed to hang on body entering my nostrils. For a moment, I felt a calm come over me. I became more serene, and soon, I fell asleep in his
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I had a weird dream as I slept. In it, a child, no more than a toddler, was pattering towards me. He held a small toy in one had and had a look of joy on his face. But as he came towards me, instead of scooping him into my arms, I gave him a kick that sent him flying across the room.
I woke up with a start. I was in my room. Beads of sweat sat on my forehead and sweat dripped down my armpits. I sat up and contemplated my dream.
“I have to get rid of this evil thing in me,” I said aloud. “This cannot be allowed to be.”
And I meant every word of it. As I sat there in the faint light of the room, began to think about the ways that I could take out the child. I did not care what Dmitri had said to me; it did not matter. I had refused to bear Derrick’s child and that was it.
Nothing will stop me from taking my pound of flesh, not a damn baby.
A smile spread across my face as I reached this ugly conclusion.
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