Chapter 31
Arielle tried to scrub off his touch from her body, but no matter how long she washed, his scent just didn’t go away, she felt disgusted at herself for being so low and letting him touch her at her most intimate place where no one else had touched, not only did she let him touch and eat her out, she actually wanted him to do more to her.
He left a long time ago but she have been stuck in the bathroom trying to erase his feel from her body but it wasn’t working, nothing was working, he touched her and she lost all her senses, gave herself to him and liked it.
That was the most pissing part of the whole thing, she liked his touch, liked how he made her feel, she shouldn’t, she shouldn’t like his touch, shouldn’t even be doing anything with him when a month ago she just saw him from afar and even now, he wasn’t a good person to her, he had bad intentions towards her and she just let him have his way with her.
“You are so stupid Arielle, you are so worthless,”
She belittled herself as she scrubbed harder, the last man she should respond to was Luciano, he had no respect for her or any other woman, her body betrayed her back there and she could not forgive herself so easily, how could she moan and whimper and even want more? She scrubbed harder with every thought that formed in her head, what would he be thinking now? That she was cheap and easy to get? That she easily gives herself to men? He hated it, hated everything that was happening to her.
Arielle finally got out of the bathroom after spending hours there, what was the point of washing her body? What’s done is done and now she just has to live in regret, she walked into the room naked and went to the wardrobe, pulled up a pair of robes, and wore it, laying on the bed she tried not to remember what had happened but it was impossible
“What do I do?”
For the first time ever, she acknowledged the voice in her head, who else would she talk to but her subconsciousness, it was clear to her that even though she despises him, he got a hold over her body, all he needed to do was look at her in a certain way and her whole body becomes jelly, she hated the feeling of being attracted to someone as distasteful as Luciano.
“Nah, he is tasty,”
The crazy voice said.
“He is not supposed to be, we are not supposed to find him attractive,”
She scolded.
“Well, I didn’t do anything, you did, I just watched.”
“Why didn’t you stop me? You are supposed to be my sense of reasoning,”
She let out feeling like she was going mad, why else would she be talking to herself?
“To be honest, you need to get laid and he is good at it,”
The annoying voice said.
“Get laid yes, but not by my enemy, he hates me and wants nothing good for me, why should I be attracted to someone like him? I don’t even like him,”
She lamented as angry tears gathered in her eyes, she wasn’t keeping herself for any reason other than she wasn’t comfortable enough to share her body with any man yet plus she was scared of getting pregnant and bringing a child that she can’t care for yet to the earth, her mother was a good example that giving birth when one is not ready to be a mom is harmful to both child and mother, if her mother had not slept around without protection, she would not have given birth to her and maybe she would have been able to fulfill her dream of being a celebrity and Arielle won’t have been here to suffer the consequences, she couldn’t make the same mistake her mom made so she had kept to herself, never taking any interest in any man even though she had a lot of guys ask her out, she couldn’t figure out why she was so easy with Luciano.
“I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t even know myself anymore,”
She lamented wiping her tears, crying wasn’t going to help her anyway.NôvelDrama.Org content rights.
Arielle spent the rest part of the day in her room, more like a prison, not like the doors were locked, she checked to make sure but she knew even though the doors weren’t locked that she couldn’t leave, she needed a game plan, needed to do something or gain his trust in some kind of way, make him think she has given in to him and find a way to get the hell out of his life.
“You could kill him,”
The voice in her head said but Arielle was so sure that she would be dead along with him before she can gain her freedom, plus she really would never kill anyone, she couldn’t even hurt roaches not to talk of a human. Her best belt was to make sure she keeps to herself and not fall for his seduction again, she couldn’t stop thinking about what happened earlier, if he had not come to his senses, or changed his mind, would she have shamelessly given her virginity to him? She still couldn’t figure out what comes over her when he touches her, was it because she never had any sexual relationship with another person? Was she in heat?
She couldn’t even bare the thought that her body choose him, She could never get naked with a man and now suddenly, she doesn’t mind being naked and wanting, it was so unusual and new to her.
“We could seduce him, use what we have to our favor, he fancies you too,”
The voice in her head said but Arielle doubted she was anything special, Luciano was a man whore, he would fuck anyone woman whether he fancies her or not, she was sure because she has seen the numerous women he has been with all through the years, the number times he has appeared on the gossip mill with different women, she was sure he was if she lets him have his way with her, he would be on to the next woman before the week runs out and she would be just another conquest of his, plus his prisoner.
“Not going to do that,”
She said firmly, whatever was wrong with her, she promised herself that she would not let him touch her ever again.
Ariel thought long and hard and came to the conclusion that she has to gain Luciano’s trust to be able to gain her freedom, she would do her best not to try to escape for now, try to make him believe that she wasn’t going to make a run for it, make him feel comfortable enough to let her out of the mansion and make a run for it when he least expect, passport or no passport, she would leave this place and never look back…