Lie To Me

Chapter 19: 19

"Seriously speaking, I realized that you're right, I shouldn't have caged myself in that situation anymore.

I'm following your sermons to me and Hans, and you're right again that I can't get out of this situation

over and over again. I'll run. " I paused then smiled at her. "I was able to leave then, why can't I do it

now? I am now ready and willing, just to calm my heart." I said.

I'm going to face it now.

She smiled too. "Good luck then, I hope this time you can really do it."

"Why not?" I said, arching my brows.

"I know you; I know how fragile you are." She said and laughed afterwards.

"Come on, who knows, when Russel started crying and begging you to come back, you’ll give in. That,

one 'I miss you, Love. I still love you' and you'll be crawling back." She added.

I rolled my eyes.

Sometimes, I just want to swear on her.

"You're stupid in that part too." I said. Laughed well.

I shook my head.

"I've learned. It's not because we love that we will accept all their foolishness. Feelings are too precious

to be ignored and wasted." I said.

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I already learned my lesson, in a very hard way.

Reysa did not comment on that. She just shook her head then smiled at me more.

I know she believes in me. Even though it has taken so long, I am often very annoyed because my

complaint is pure but nothing is being done. She stayed patient on me and waited for me to be this

decided. I know I will always get my back and I to her too.

"But you still love me?" She asked again.

I looked at him but he just laughed even more.

"I don't know about you." I said and then I dropped the call.

I have buried that along with the past. Stop. Maybe it's hard for me to forget him, but not because I still

feel for him.

I have re-evaluated myself over and over, especially after we met again. And doing so, I realized that I

was not stuck because I still love him the way I have loved him before.

If there is anything left, you just have to respect what the two of us went through.

And that was the funniest about this situation. I laughed at myself for that.

It's just funny that after everything, here I was, still respecting the person who never did the same deed

for me.

Ironic.

But then, through that, I learned that the only reason that kept me to be like this is I was still seeking for

answers.

Your answer to the reasons he can't answer.

But not now, little by little, I get it when I can’t really get it and I don’t want to insist anymore.

I will not be blessed e. Even if I surrender to him and the sea cries, he still has nothing to answer. He

still can't tell me why I'm still not enough after all I've done.

He said I was more than enough, but still, he chose to cheat on me.

Just really stupid.

And no matter what his plan is to approach me, I'll make sure I don't lose in the end.