Chapter 26 Lyra
“Why do I keep finding myself in this mess? Why do I keep allowing him to treat me this way? It has been a constant practice, and I keep falling for this over and over again. And I hate myself even more.
As I looked at him, I could see regret written all over his face. He regretted ever going this far with me, regretted being in a compromising situation with me. The matebond kept playing tricks on me, and in anger, I clenched my fists, holding onto my hair tightly.
And to know he just said some hurtful words to me, that I mean nothing to him. He has Annie. I’m just his fucking mate that he tends to keep a secret for life.”
A new surge of anger burned within me. Seeing the expression on his face, something reacted to the emotions within me-something like a shadow appeared. I was taken aback by this sudden encounter.
I was encircled by this shadow, and the room suddenly became dark, wrapping me in a form, as if it sensed my emotions.
It kept swirling around the room. I tried to struggle to get free from the overwhelming shadow and darkness surrounding me, but I found myself trembling as I stretched out my hands, reaching out to Kessler for help.
The look on Kessler was one of awe and confusion as he couldn’t come to terms with what was unfolding before him. He stood rooted in place, despite my attempt to stretch my hand to him for comfort.
I stepped back further as I let out a scream that pierced through the room. At that moment, the shadow grew even more intense. What could this be, I questioned, as fear and confusion engulfed me.
I was afraid of the damage this would have on me, Kessler, and even the pack. I was afraid of the judgment this new experience would bring.
“This shouldn’t be my worry now; I should be bothered about getting free from these shackles of darkness around me.”
With the thought in my head, the shadow grew stronger. Then I realized that it had to do with emotion.
As the realization dawned on me, I focused on controlling my emotions, trying to suppress the fear and anger surging within me. I tried to calm down my breathing, gather my strength, and focus my mind, which helped in take control of the shadow. I was surprised at how, with the control of emotions, the shadow ceased to whirl.
This action took a toll on me as I found myself gasping for air, unable to draw breath into my lungs. I clutched hard at my heart, unable to feel it. I tried my best to stay steady, but I found out that I was failing miserably.
As panic threatened to engulf me, I said to myself “Just focus on breathing, in and out, steady and slow.”
With each measured breath, I regained control over my body and mind. However, the ordeal had left me drained.
I looked to Kessler for help, but I noticed he was too shocked to notice, standing there lost. Soon, I found no strength in me as I slumped, but before I could collapse, a strong hand caught me and held me steady. Tingling emotions ran through my body, and then I sniffed his scent, which helped me a bit. He moved me to the bed, panic evident in his eyes.
I was weak. What just happened drained me of strength and emotions. I had never felt something like this before. The whole thing was so strange to me that I couldn’t comprehend it.
As I lay on the bed, Kessler hovered nearby, his concern evident in his furrowed brow, despite his shock.
With each passing moment, a sense of unease with questions in my mind: What had caused the sudden manifestation of darkness and the overwhelming emotions?
Feeling overwhelmed by the turmoil within me, I weakly raised my hand to his face. The tingling sensation persisted as I asked him in a feeble voice, “Why do you keep toying with my emotions?”
Before he could respond, he held on tight to me, his grip firm as he groaned against my neck. I was too weak to react to any of the emotions coursing through him to me.
Darkness enveloped me. Yet, amidst the engulfing shadow, I could still sense his agitation, feel him growling and shaking me profusely. I could sense the urgency of the situation, the fear that gripped him tightly.NôvelDrama.Org © content.
In no time, footsteps were heard rushing in, as Kessler dished out commands for me to be taken to the pack doctor. I was still cradled in Kessler’s protective hand, feeling the urgency in his movements as he raced to get me help.
I struggled to open my eyes, but I couldn’t find the strength, as I continued to drown in the abyss of darkness that had consumed me.
“Please stay alive for me,” I heard Kessler’s panicked voice whispering in my ear. Doubtlessly, no one else was around, his strong arms providing the only protection I needed.
He has lost a mate before, and I don’t want to imagine the pain he will feel if he loses me. The thought of it made me want to fight for my life and stay alive for him.
I want to stay like this forever in his arms and don’t wish to let go. His scent is so comforting. He makes me feel so many emotions I can’t articulate right now in my head.
The pack doctor walked in and said, “Alpha, you have to let go of her. It will be difficult to carry out our duties while you still hold on to her.”
I could sense the reluctance in him, but eventually, he let go of me. As I lay in bed, devoid of strength, I came to the stark realization that my lifeline was Kessler. With a heavy heart, I succumbed to the darkness, completely shutting down.