Chapter One Hundred Three
Maxine’s Point of View
In the end, I’m standing in front of Alyn’s room. I said to him that he should forget what I uttered but here I am in front of his room, thinking if I should ask him again to sleep together or just let it go. Ugh, dammit. I just said that because I don’t want him to think that I still love him while he’s still in love with his ex-girlfriend. I feel guilty, I ruined their relationship again. I wonder if Alyn hates me…
When Alyn asked me to sleep together I was glad but sad at the same time. What if he asked me that just to ride the flow of the moment? What if he didn’t really mean that? What if he just wanted to confirm if I still have feelings for him or if I will agree.
I sighed. I was about to turn away when the door suddenly opened and Alyn appeared.
My eyes widened in surprise, “Oh, uhm…” I looked away.
Damn it. Did he feel that someone was in his door so he opened the door? Or Is he thirsty? Is he planning to go downstairs? Aish, why does he have to catch me here? So embarrassing!
“What are you doing here? And… While hugging a pillow?” He asked, I could feel that he’s confused by the tone of his voice. Of course, who wouldn’t be confused if they saw you in front of their room, Maxine?!
“Uhm…” I lowered my head. Damn, what should I answer? Come on! Think of something useful! Argh.
“Come here,” he said and pulled me into his room. He let go of my head after he locked the door. He turned to me again and looked at me from head to toe, “Are you planning to sleep here?” He asked.
I cleared my throat, “Aherm,” and nodded.
He held my shoulder for a moment before I received a hug from him, “You told me to forget what you asked, but look at you now…” He chuckled.
“So… Do you hate that I’m here?” I asked, and hugged the pillow tightly.
“No, I like it,” he answered and let go of me, “Let’s sleep.” He held my hand and got on the bed together.
I turned my back to him as soon as we laid down. I’m afraid to face him because he might hear my heart beat. Damn. What’s with the hug earlier? I’m so thrilled! If he did that, I might get the wrong idea. Goodness!
“Why are you turning your back at me?” He asked. I felt his hand embrace me and I can also feel his heavy breath from my ear!
“B-Because I’m sleepy, I want to sleep already,” I answered. Of course, that’s a lie. You already know my reason, right?
“Can’t we sleep while you’re facing me?” He asked and leaned his forehead to my shoulder.
My heart races even faster! Gosh, please give my heart a rest, Alyn. This is bad. I think my heart is really going to burst!
“No,” I answered. “Let’s sleep, hmm? Haven’t you been sleepy yet?”
He shook his head, “I don’t think I can go to sleep if you’re not facing me.”
I sighed. Fine! I turned around to face him. Our nose bumped so I immediately lowered my head. My face feels hot. It isn’t only my heart that will explode, also my face.
He stretched his arm and he made me rest my head there. He moved closer to me and hugged me. Just a natural hug, unlike his usual hug when we were still together. And just by thinking that few of his actions changed, breaks my heart.
I don’t know what time I slept. I just woke up tomorrow morning without Alyn beside me. Waking up without him made me think that it was all just a dream. However, when I roamed my eyes inside the room, I’m certain that I’m not in my room.
I sat down and rubbed my eyes. I yawned and stretched my arm before I got off the bed. I cleaned the bed first before I left. I went downstairs and went to the dining room when I smelled something nice. It made my stomach boil.
Is Alyn making our breakfast? Gosh, never in my wilderness dream that I would taste Alyn’s cooking in the future. Although, in the past, almost everyday I daydreamed about Alyn and I being together and living a happy life, I have never thought of Alyn serving me meals.
“Good morning,” he greeted me as soon as I opened the door. As if he was waiting for me to come.
“Good morning,” I greeted back.
The foods are ready. He had finished cooking and all the food was ready on the table. Even my own food is ready. I sat down and started eating with him.
After we ate, the bell rang. Hmm, someone is here? Who would it be?
I looked at Alyn, “Do you know if someone will visit?”
He shook his head, “No. Wait for me in the living room, I’ll check it.” He said and went out of the dining room.
I stood up and cleaned the table. I also decided to wash the dishes so I could be useful somehow. Maybe later Alyn will leave me because I’m useless. If he were to leave me, that would be the end of me.
After I washed the dishes, I realized that Alyn hasn’t come back yet. My brows furrowed and took off the apron. I ran out of the dining room and went outside.
My brows furrowed when I saw Alyn was talking with a woman. I sped up walking until I got to where they were and only then did I know who Alyn was talking to. They turned to me at the same time when I pulled Alyn’s arm.
“What are you doing here?” Alyn asked, “Didn’t I tell you to wait inside?” He added.
I looked at him, “You want me to wait there like a fool? You want me to wait there so you can have a sweet chit chat with your ex-girlfriend?”
His brows furrowed, “What are you-”
I didn’t let him finish what he was going to say. I turned to Elaine and said, “Are you still coming to a married man? How shameless of you.”
Elaine smirked, “You know yourself that you’re only married on paper.”
“So, what? We’re still married!” My grip on Alyn’s arm tightened due to annoyance, “What are you even doing here? Still not get over with your ex?” I sniggered, “Too bad, he’s with me now. I’m his, and he’s mine. There is nothing left for you.”
Alyn scoffed, “Yeah… She’s mine and I’m hers.”
I looked at Alyn, surprised at what he said. My face was heated when I saw him looking at me, too. He was smiling like there was no tomorrow.
I flinched when he caressed my cheek. And my heart pounded when our lips touched. He moved his lips so I moved mine, as well. I don’t care if Elaine was watching us, what was important to me was this kiss… The kiss between only Alyn and me.
“Arg, gross! I’ll take my leave now, tch!” Said Elaine.
When I heard the sound of Elaine’s car driving away, that’s when I separated from Alyn.
“Jealous?” He asked as soon as our lips parted.
I rolled my eyes, “Don’t talk to me. If I didn’t catch you, you might be with her now in a hotel.”
He chuckled, “What kind of bullshit was that, wife?”
“I said, don’t talk to me!” I slapped his hand that was about to touch my cheek and went inside.
Fuck him! Is he trying to cheat on me? Dammit.
I was in the staircase when Alyn grabbed my hand to stop me. I turned to him angrily and tried to pull my hand from him again and again but he wouldn’t let go.
“Fuck! Let go of me!” I yelled.
He heaved a sigh, “We were over too long ago, Max. What are you jealous of?”
“Didn’t you love her when we were still together? What do you expect me to react to?!” Gosh, my tears will come out any moment.
He licked his lower lip and looked directly into my eyes, “How broken do you think I was when you left me? She wasn’t the one I love, Maxine. Do you think I would be here if I loved her? Do you think I would choose this over her if she really was the one I love? Dammit. This is frustrating and I’m getting tired.”
“D-Don’t…” My lips trembled. Please, no. Please, don’t get tired of me. Please, be with me until the end. Please… “Please, don’t leave me, Alyn.”
“Three words and I will do anything you want,” Alyn demanded.
“I… I love you, Alyn,” I said. “S-So, please… Don’t leave me, don’t get tired of me. Please, stay with me. Alyn, I love you so much,” my tears finally fell down.NôvelDrama.Org holds © this.
Instead of answering me ‘I love you, too’ he kissed me like a hungry tiger.