Chapter 40
Lea POV
I am still not sure of what happened, but even Brylle is making such a worried look on his face.Content provided by NôvelDrama.Org.
Holding my hands so tight, he keeps on apologizing for how he fell asleep leaving me in that frightening situation. But to tell the truth, it wasn’t his fault to begin with. If I am just careful enough and fast enough to lock the door then none of this would ever happen. But still… I can’t help but feel like something as odd in everything that happened.
“I will make sure that none of this would ever happen again, Lea”
“Brylle, it is fine. Nothing bad happened to me, right? That is what matters the most”
Shaking his head, I know this would run through his mind for a long time. This guy, what did I do in my life to be blessed to have him by my side? Even if I don’t recall my memories from the past, I can say that meeting him is the best thing that happened to me.
“That is why I really love you…”
I mumbled out of my realization. I didn’t intend to blur it out like that. but his eyes looking at me with such a surprise made me take back my regretful thoughts. I think it is not bad to say it to him… what I really felt.
“Lea, I love you too. I love you more than anything… I love you and I will always love you”
Loving someone… I am not sure if it was alright for me to have such life. But there is one thing that I am hoping for even after all this time.
I hope that this happiness won’t end. I hope this last forever.
But not all we want do come true. For life is such a mysterious creature that makes us be worried sometimes.
“Brylle, are you alright? You keep on disappearing any other time”
“Yeah, I am fine”
He replied and soon after that he laid his head on my lap. Just like what he usually does. But this time… something was strange. I can feel it. instead of talking to me and asking me about how my day was… he was quiet. As if he was thinking about something so deep, did something happen?
It is not my case to know what happened to him everyday but he will tell me some simple stuffs. I am also aware that he doesn’t let me know some other stuffs. Things that I will just overhear in his conversation with someone.
I know it is bad to do so but it is not as if I intended to hear it.
“Are you sure? You doesn’t seem to be alright though…”
“What? so do you also think something is wrong with me?”
A quick change on his tone, something he never speak to me with. Its been a month since that incident where I met Mira happened. Ever since that day, many things started to occur. Not that I am concerned with it but I can’t help but be. After all, even Brylle was affected.
Just look how much he changed over those times…
“Brylle, I didn’t mean it that way. I am just worried”
Waiting for his smile to appear, I didn’t had a glimpse of it. but instead, I gain the contrary.
“I’ll get going”
He said standing up and picking his belongings.
“Where are you going?”
Standing up, I tried to stop him. But he won;t listen to me. As if all the things that i would say will just escape his other ear.
“Anywhere, just leave me alone”
Messing with his hair, he avoided my gaze. He even have a frown written all over him. did I do something bad? I didn’t mean to let him think something is wrong with him. but his complexion…
I can’t help but see how his state is getting worst day by day…
I am worried… I really am… but if he will not say a thing to me about what really is going on… how would i know?
When … when did it even start?
Ah, that’s right. When he told me he will visit his brother, after that, he came back late and leave early for some days. Maybe it was something related to him?
“Did your brother do something to you?”
I mumbled asking, because as of now, that is the only thing that i could think of. That maybe… the reason why he was acting like this was all because of his brother.
Looking at me with those hateful eyes… why does he look at me with such a face? When he would always have a sweet and caring look whenever he would look at me…
“Brylle-”
About to hold him, i am really worried. I don’t know why he was acting like this and I don’t like it at any bit.
“Don’t touch me!”
He shouted.
As soon as he hit my hand, my system turned numb. It was… the first time he did that to me hurt me,.. make me feel like this.
“Brylle… just…just what in the world happened to you?”
I could feel my eyes turning hot. I don’t like this. I hate this… why must things be like this? Why… what happened to you… Brylle?
And so he left. I could do nothing at all. I can’t stop him. He wont even listen to my words…
Looking at his back, it was the last time I ever saw him. It was the last time I talked with him for he never went back home…
“Don’t you think the madame lost her place?”
“Master won’t even look at her the same way… I wonder why is that”
“It would be better for them to be like what they were before”
“But, treating her like this, same as before… is it still worthy? I mean… shouldn’t it be the right time for us to cut ties with her?”
“Right, what if he get mat again and throw her away? What would happen to us if we stay close to the madame?”
Hearing those words again… are they even trying to hide it? I know full well how things went awry. I won’t deny that fact. We were happy before… but everything… all of that seems to just crumble into pieces…
Eating on my own, I did make some investigation on why Brylle is acting that way. But even if I look through everything, I just don’t have enough power to look through it deeper.
I know something is related to his brother. I want to save him. I want the Brylle i know be back to the way he is…. He… he is not…
I have so many question I want to be answered. Join with the fragments of memories I recall yet… not related to what they told me.
They said that I have a twin, but… why can’t I find it in the memories I had? I have been drinking the medicine that Brylle gave me. But, instead of recalling it much clearer, it was the opposite. Even if the doctor told me it is bad to push everything right away… why do I feel this uneasiness that something is not right?
“Madame??”
Called by one of the maids that was hired to attend to me. Even thought they are talking like that behind my back, they are still doing their job like before.
But if I stay still like this, nothing will change.
“You are going somewhere?”
Asking me that question, I asked her back.
“Can’t I?”
“N-no, I mean, the master told us to let you do everything you want. So if it is what you wished for, you can do so”
Part of the things I am thankful for… he is not treating me badly. Other than the fact that he acted strange and even get away from me. Although we had a quarel because of what happened last time, i can say that his orders remains the same as what it was before.
“Please prepare the vehicle right away”
Bowing her head, she just agreed in what i said. even if her master was Brylle, since I have the highest standing in this place, now that Brylle is not home, she have no other choice but to follow my orders.
“Yes, Madame”
There is one place I can go…
Holding the piece of paper, I am not certain but only oone person I know have this name. only I know who it was… I did not tell anyone about it… thinking I can use it to my advantage. But…
[If you need my help, just tell my name and they will assist you. I have yet to pay your goodwill back just as I told you so. A promise is a promise. -Mira]
And now, all I have to do is get in there without them knowing. Hah, how should I get their eyes off me?