Surrender Your Sensations

“Yes. I know. You told me once.” Rupert suddenly lifted me from my seat before pushing me slightly forward in the vanity mirror so he could squeeze himself into the bench. He wasn’t wearing anything for Pete’s sake!

I looked at him confused when he sat on the bench and then made me sit on his lap. He immediately wrapped his arms around my waist before leaning his chin on my shoulder. “Ava’s birthday was in April,” he added before pressing his nose on the crook of my neck.

My mouth fell open at what he said. “My birthday was in January, Rupert,” I said incredulously again, not comprehending the fact that the earrings were maybe for me?

“I bought these earrings last week. And yes, that’s for you, Meredith Kaye. Don’t ask me why I bought it for you. I’m also not sure why I thought of you when I saw that,” he explained, sounding bewildered.

I could feel the tickle creeping up my body because Rupert was currently naked and I could feel his hard length against my behind. He was poking me and I could feel the heat creeping into my system.

I slowly smiled as I stared at the pair of earrings. It was beautiful and my heart was racing to receive such a gift.

“There’s no occasion, though.” I was smiling widely before taking the one earring from the box. “But thank you, Rupert.”

“Occasions were just excuses, Meredith. If the person made you happy, there’s no wrong in giving that person a gift out of nowhere.”

I looked up in the vanity mirror to put on the earring. I could see Rupert on the reflection and how he was intently watching me while his chin was on my shoulder.

“So you are saying right now that I make you happy, that’s why you bought me a gift?” I giggled when Rupert took the other earring and he was the one who put it to my other ear. I watched him do it.

He kissed the exposed crook of my neck before he looked proudly at the earring I was wearing. “I’m happy when I’m with you.”

I was stunned by him. He was being too direct again and my abnormal heart was about to explode because of it.

“That was cheesy.” He chuckled, giving me a wink on the mirror’s reflection. “But seriously, Meredith. I like me better when I’m with you ~”

We both laughed because of that last line he said in a sing-song manner. After saying that, his right hand traveled upward from my stomach to my breast, kneading it on top of the shirt I was wearing. His left hand was holding my left arm, softly caressing it as he held my gaze on the mirror’s reflection. He was looking at me intently as I bit my bottom lip and my back arched because of his hands’ motion.

“The earrings belong to you, Sweetie. I knew it. When I saw that, I immediately thought of you.” His lips trailed kisses on my exposed neck, sucking and licking the skin.

“Why didn’t you give it to me right away?” I sighed, started moving my hip and grinding myself on his erect manhood, poking my behind.

“I don’t know … I thought it wasn’t right for me to give you a gift.”

“Why?” I was closing my eyes when he put his two hands under the hem of my top and massaged my breasts at the same time.

“I don’t know …” Rupert kissed the side of my face as his hands did wonders. “I don’t want to … Cross the line and ruin what we have.”

I was shocked again because he said that. Our gazes met on the mirror’s reflection. He kept on kissing my face and his hands kept kneading my breasts. “You don’t want to cross the line?”

“I don’t want to ruin us.”

“You are drawing out the line,” I stated with finality before nodding at him. “Not because you don’t want to break it, Rupert. You just really don’t want it to go deeper because we’re not here for that,” I told him, giving him a small smile before standing up from sitting on his lap.

“Meredith, I don’t understand. Are you angry?”Content bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.

I heaved a deep sigh and composed myself. I didn’t know why I would be affected like this when I knew from the start, this wasn’t going any further other than sex. I should really wake up.

I was just here to enjoy the sex the same as Rupert’s reason. I should stop my expectations.

“I’m not angry. I just want you to know that there’s nothing to ruin between us, Rupert.” I faced him with a big smile. He looked up at me and I looked at him seductively. I couldn’t read his facial expression and I thanked my prosopagnosia for that. And at least I won’t feel the pain in case I saw that he didn’t care about my feelings. “I want to clarify it again. We agreed that we were only after sex with each other. You took my virginity and asked me to stay as your sexual partner because you wanted to do more things to my body and I agreed to you. That’s exactly what we have. So you don’t have to draw the line because in the first place, no one between us would want to cross the line.”

Then I knelt in front of him. I opened his legs wide, before I placed myself in between. My hands gripped both of his thighs before I lowered my face and licked his manhood.

He hissed and immediately groaned with my daring action.

But I wanted him to know this- that I would not let my crazy self commit and get broken at the end. I couldn’t let myself love a man who loves someone else. Ava was maybe dead but I could feel it- Rupert’s heart was reserved for her.

“Meredith Kaye!” He grabbed my hair to steady my head. That’s when he started bucking up his hips to pump himself in and out of my mouth.

I played with his balls as I took him in my mouth. His moans became louder and I could feel his length growing inside my mouth.

“Damn it, Meredith Kaye! You’re a goddess!” He came and spurted all of his release inside my mouth.

I was about to swallow it when he opened his hand in front of my mouth. I spat out his essence in his hand and he immediately stood up. “I’ll just clean myself up. Wait for me. Then I’ll take you to your dorm.”

I was stunned by his emotionless voice. He didn’t bother to help me from standing up. He just picked up his clothes without even giving me a glance. “And don’t worry, Meredith. I get what you said earlier. You’re not interested in crossing the line so I shouldn’t as well. You said it yourself, we should just enjoy this while it lasts.” He shrugged before heading to the door of the room. “But I want one thing in this set-up. Please tell me directly, straight to my face, if you want out. Don’t you dare leave me hanging.” Then he finally left the room.

I was stunned for a few seconds by what he said before finally finding the strength to get up from my knees. I sat on the bench in front of the vanity mirror and stared at the sparkling earrings hanging on my ears. Why did it feel heavy? Why was there pain in my chest? Why was I so affected?

I sighed before running my hand through my hair. Don’t leave him hanging? Why? Doesn’t he have any plans to leave our set-up to assume I’m the first one to leave?

As far as I know, he was the one who couldn’t move on from a woman who was already dead. So if there’s anyone who was most likely to leave this setup first between the two of us, it’s him and not me.